novel I will not be me by Kawthar Al-Jabri oscillates to tell the story of a young man suffering from a psychological condition who lies in a hospital and draws with his imaginations a world parallel to his real world and the reason is the absence of the mother in his life as a child and Bashayer was the one who sponsored and supervised his treatment She is the character through which he painted his imaginary world to see her once as a lover and wife and again as a tender mother. The matter that worried his wife Samar because Tariq repeated the phrase Bashayer indifferent to his son’s death: “He is crying and crying out Bashayers name… Your son died and you were reluctant to Bashayer… What did you do Bashayer with your life… until your son neglects this neglect .. ... and not just your son ... even with me sometimes you call me a bashir ... God will take revenge on this teaser ... She is the one who took your mind and your heart and kept me a mans body