An edgy realistic debut novel praised by the New York Times bestselling author of Between Shades of Gray Ruta Sepetys as “a beautiful reminder that amid our broken pieces we can truly find ourselves.” Alexi Littrell hasn’t told anyone what happened to her over the summer by her backyard pool. Instead she hides in her closet counts the slats in the air vent and compulsively scratches the back of her neck trying to make the outside hurt more than the inside does—and deal with the trauma. When Bodee Lennox—“the Kool-Aid Kid”—moves in with the Littrells after a family tragedy Alexi discovers an unlikely friend in this quiet awkward boy who has secrets of his own. As their friendship grows Alexi gives him the strength to deal with his past and Bodee helps her summon the courage to find her voice and speak up about the rape that has changed the course of her life.